Well, the workshop I attended in Glastonbury definitely created a ripple effect throughout my whole trip to the UK; the activations cracked me open in ways it’s hard to put into words but for which I will be eternally grateful. It certainly feels that I am returning home changed, yet I am still me. I am excited for all that is unfolding – it has undoubtedly been a rollercoaster ride of emotional highs and lows, and I can feel that I am still recalibrating. I’m now taking some time out and being very gentle with myself.
Apart from travelling around and catching up with some friends and family, my plans kept changing without much warning and I had to learn to go with the flow, to trust that things would fall into place in the perfect moment. Generally speaking, I would say that this happened time and time again and I had to do some significant letting go of certain things along the way.
I want to let you into a little secret: I have never felt like I belong, I can be in a room of friends and feel alone. I know I’m not the only one who feels like this but since my amazingly magical journey in England things have shifted and I finally feel a sense of belonging. It has been an incredible journey and one that I certainly didn’t see coming.
About a month after attending the workshop we had another session via Zoom which offered us our final activation and oh my goodness, it created a major shift in my understanding of a personal relationship I have with a member of my family. I am continuing to recalibrate as I previously mentioned, but something inside of me has changed. It was subtle and yet it feels powerful, in one divine swoop.
I had a telephone conversation and instantly woke up to the fact that this relationship was one way; this person has continually and systematically let me down in twists and turns throughout my life and for the first time ever I was truly able to see the relationship for what it is. I woke up to the fact that this is a relationship that gives me nothing and takes everything. Like a bolt of lightning had struck me, I had a deep sense that ‘I am done.’
At the time I felt both heartbroken, and I do mean literally: I don’t often cry but oh boy, I cried in the knowledge that this relationship is done. I felt a sense of shame that I’ve let the negative aspects of the relationship continue for over 60 years and yet there was also a deep sense of elation that I had finally acknowledged the truth, that I truly am finished with it and that this is the end.
I have no need to let this particular person know what’s happened; I understand that they have no desire to change their behavioural patterns but for the first time ever I finally understand that they don’t care about how I feel, they don’t care about my narrative because none of it fits in with theirs. I will never be heard by them; I am just wasting my breath in trying to explain myself.
I can’t begin to put into words how wonderfully freeing these realisations are whilst at the same time feeling a sense of embarrassment that it has taken me so, so long to finally admit this truth to myself. It is so completely and utterly liberating. In a sense, nothing changes – yet everything has changed.
In order to gain the full understanding of these realisations, of the heartbreak and of the lessons this relationship was here to teach me, I chose to have an Akashic Records session with someone I trust, know, and highly recommend. The idea of an Akashic Records session is to look deeper into the understandings of what a particular relationship is offering in the way of soul lessons and there is an opportunity to clear any vows and contracts that you have with this person.
My Akashic Records session was mind-blowing and has been the key to completing the shifts on offer to me after my course and activation in Glastonbury. I was shown, told and felt things in a way that I possibly might not have been able to access by myself. I have cleared things that have been blocking me for what feels like lifetimes. I now give myself permission to be me, fully and gloriously.
The greatest shift is that as I allow the energy to settle, as I integrate all that has altered, I feel a deep sense of inner peace and calm that I have truly never been able to access previously. I have a deeper sense of belonging than I have ever felt before. In letting go of an unhealthy relationship, I finally have this much longed for sense of belonging and it feels incredibly powerful. It isn’t a belonging to any particular place or any particular country; it’s a sense of belonging in and of myself. For the first time in my life I’m truly, deeply and madly happy to be me and that feels the most powerful and wonderful outcome.
Now is a time of integration of all that’s happened. I’m recalibrating my energy as I step into a higher vibrational version of myself. I’m open to deeper truths and understandings. One of the noticeable changes is a clearer sense of taking no nonsense – my boundaries are more defined. Onwards and upwards, here I come.
I hope that what I have shared with you this month enables you to give yourself permission to let go of something that has been stopping you from giving yourself permission to be happy. Remember that healing and meditation are excellent ways to assist you in letting go of old learnt behaviours and limiting beliefs, assisting in you stepping ever more fully into all that you truly are. Enabling you to soften, open and expand your heart space, learning to know yourself on a soul level.
Please do get in touch if you have any questions or if you would like my support. I’d love to assist you on your healing journey and guide you through empowering meditations as you connect ever more deeply into who you truly are. I love holding space for each and every one of you. Contact me on +61 4 2451 8884 or email hello@pippaneve.com.
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